being aroace

SORRYY RANT INCOMING :P 

everyone around me is always complaining about being in love with somebody who doesn't like them back or someone who is "out of their league", but they don't understand how it feels to want to love but emotionally not being able to. it kinda hurts to see everyone around me get to fall in love and feel loved and have someone who is their perfect match while im just actually incapable of falling in love. dont get me wrong, im glad i'm aroace because i realized that relationships simply arent for me and are another load of stress in my life but i feel like im missing out or something. my parents are going to expect me to start dating or go on a date soon or have someone to bring to a school dance and... i dont want that at all. i want to be my own independent person and just fool around with my friends, not worry about having to dedicate my time to a relationship when im uncomfortable at even thinking of it. sorry for the rant, i just wanted to talk about this because i cant choose my sexuality, but i wish i could love like a normal person :<