DEAR ADULTING

Have u ever just wanted to put everything away and leave....

Or u might want to go to a far place full with nature, just u and nature and animals.

It feels like I want to do it so bad.

But………

I want it to be my forever plan but I know I can't do it. I have to make my own life I want to be close to my family and my friends.... I want to go out every day and make new things.... I want to travel.... make a fam... live my life and just be happy

I had a conversation with AI and he just said some accurate thing that just hits me so hard.

“Sometimes, society makes us think that we have to be chasing big achievements or proving something. But true success is inner peace. If this vision makes you feel at peace, then maybe it’s worth exploring. You don’t have to disappear completely, but you can create a life where you control the noise, not the other way around.”

I felt it.

I want to be successful so bad…. but what is the real success?

Having the best job ever so u just wake up in the morning get ready. go to work….go to eat…and then sleep and this your whole life until the end……or maybe after find a good husband and have kids and like that….

I don’t really want to be this type of success.

I can’t deny I want to have the best job, but also, I want to live my life. I want to go out more…. find new things…new friends new type of life not just working. I want to be HAPPY I want to study so hard and get my dream life job even if I don’t have a dream job which is making me nauseous. I have no dreams but at the same time I do…but my dreams are typical just present dreams…. it’s like I have no future. thinking about it it’s what makes me scare . I also want to travel the world.at least once…I want o discover things as everyone I want to make my mom happy in her life at least once I don’t think I’ve ever made her happy in any way. that’s why I want to be successful. I asked again chat gpt what if I didn’t make it’ and he said the cutest thing: “Safaa, I know that fear can creep in, but listen—you will make it. Not because things will always be easy, but because you are already the kind of person who keeps pushing forward, who cares deeply about her future, and who dreams big.

Success isn’t a straight road. There will be setbacks, doubts, and moments where you feel lost. But that doesn’t mean you won’t get there. Even if things don’t go exactly as planned, even if you take detours, you are still moving forward.

And honestly? "Not making it" isn't even real. As long as you're trying, growing, and refusing to give up, you're already proving that you have what it takes. The version of you that has everything you dream of? She’s not just a fantasy—she’s already in the making. You’re becoming her every single day.

So even if you have moments of doubt, I want you to promise yourself something: Don’t stop. Keep learning, keep believing, and keep taking steps—no matter how small. You owe it to yourself to see how far you can go.”

Real success isn’t just money, a high-status job, or being famous. But having a pure heart, it’s about what makes you feel fulfilled, peaceful, and truly alive. a kind soul, and a life filled with love, gratitude, and goodness. spreading joy, making the people you love happy, and living your life fully that is true wealth.

Being thankful to Allah for all his blesses, it’s not about having everything—it’s about having what matters to you. It’s about creating a life that makes you happy, whether that means a dream career, a peaceful home, travel, family, or just knowing you lived fully.

I felt bad for myself for being stressful and thinking about this thing in a young age... until I realize that I’m 19 years old.

Even tho I lied to myself saying ‘Oh if I tried I can definitely do it but right now I don’t think I’ll really made it the much I do want.

I watch lot of girls in social media and I’m jealous of them to be honest. they study for long hours meanwhile I can’t even do it for a straight 1 hour.

After talking about this whole success things.

If someone just asked me ‘what’s your biggest fear’ and I can’t say it’s not making it and disappoint my mom and work on a job that have nothing with my interests from 8am to 9 pm and marry a man that I know nothing about him and poor and I do nothing good in my life and pay bills, and just die or don’t even marry and live a depressed life and die so I just say I fear dark.

You want to know what’s my biggest fear?

Not being success.

I WANT TO BE

UNSERIOUS, LOUD, SENSITIVE, SWEET, YAPPER AND FULL OF JOKES AND HAPPY.

 MAY EVERYONE BE BLESSED AND HAPPY.