DIARY: where are my flowers? (ARCHIVE OF 19/1/25)

Archive of Main Diary 19/1/25 - "where are my flowers?"

Hello.

It's the 19th of January, and it's around 12 pm. I am on a drug holiday right now. I also can't remember what brush size i had for these. Sorry for the inconsistent lettering.

I did something wrong.
Or well, I think so. I don't know. Feels like I did. I feel like people judge me or ignore me more than usual. Pretty sure it's nothing but still, i cant shake that feeling. Paranoia is something too. Maybe they're all watching,

I wonder, when am I getting my flowers? More than ever i feel like my work is being ignored and i dont know why.
Do i need to step it up? Do more? Draw more? Post more? Produce more? What am I doing wrong? Why was Sae mad? If i'm doing something wrong, why wont anyone say anything? Why am I not being noticed?

What do i need to do in order to bring value to your life?