projects

quick update with the flu: i’m still coughing but im well enough to get up and outside again im very grateful to have my mom help me back into recovery :)

i’ve been working on my youtube projects lately but i feel like i don’t have enough content to post a new video.. i need to record or stuff to edit with but its hard to find places and cool things to film when i live in such a boring place. 

i have a video ready to upload but im not satisfied with it, i like the idea but i want to add more to it like a voice over or cooler transitions between the clips. maybe i should just post it anyways and say fuck it. my yt channel in very small rn anyways so it won’t matter all too much if people don’t like it, i find enjoyment out of making cute little videos about my life anyway.

sad thing is i don’t have any friends anymore so when i edit old clips together it just reminds me of what i don’t have.. like all the people in my videos are no longer in my life and i miss them so yeah it’s like a bittersweet feeling ig. i can’t wait to go back to work or out of town again so i can meet new people and make some friends again bc im so freakin lonely you guys omg

i hope you’re doing well and remember to be grateful for your existence and loved ones you have around you!! i love you guys ill ttyl <3