Class Enrollment Confusion ! ༉‧₊˚.

I'm in my final semester of high school and I am so excited for this last semester ! I have a meeting with my counselor Thursday to talk about what classes I want to do. I have almost everything started : Japanese, English, Senior Project, Astronomy, PE, Sculpture, etc. but I want to add a few more classes ! There are about 8 classes that I want to add, but I can only add one more. There is Art Appreciation, which could be fun, but then there is also Sign Language, Personal Finance, AP Psychology, and Music Appreciation. I wish my school offered more language classes, but since they don't, I'm trying to find something new that could interest me. Sign Language seems pretty fun. I think I would enjoy it a lot, so I am leaning towards that, but I also really want to do AP Psychology and something art or music related. To some level, I know my counselor will want to do something easy and fun, like sign language or music, rather than finance and psychology because of how rocky high school has been for me. Since I missed like two years in person, and have been working non-stop to get caught up, I think she wants me to enjoy this last semester of high school, so that way I don't look back at it as being all miserable. I really like all the classes I have now, but I feel like adding one or two more would challenge me more, and it would help bring my GPA up to a 3.8 or 3.9, which is what I'm hoping for. I don't think my new GPA has been calculated, but I believe its about a 3.7511 or something like that. If we add 8 more A's, it would be a little higher, so I'm hoping everything works out so I can get an award at my graduation. My sisters are both super successful in academics--I mean my older sister has done like 32 credits for College in only ONE YEAR, and she got an award at graduation, and does so much, like work for state parks, plays the piano super well, and is balancing a double major while traveling, and like my younger sister founded her own business with friends, got invited to a Stanford Conference, is applying to all Ivy Leagues, has like a 4.0, and does all these clubs that look amazing on her record. And then there is me--the artistic middle kid LMAO. I mean my sisters are going into AMAZING majors--my older sister is doing like astrophysics, and  music, and is planning on becoming an astronaut, and my younger sister wants to do law, and become a doctor. LIKE WHAT. I'm over here wanting to pursue Fashion and Music (later I want to go back to college and do a double major of Philosophy and Astrobiology, but that's not for a while), while they are out here striving for AMAZING things. People try to reassure me by saying that I had a more "difficult" childhood, so it's understandable I like art more and value creative stuff more, but I think it just goes to show the profound lack of ambition, and higher achievement I have. I mean, out of everything I could do in this world, I am most drawn to painting, music and fashion?? In 10 years when I come back for family holidays, its gonna be embarrassing comparing my "achievements" to that of my sisters. But oh well, I mean, at least it means that no matter what they do, they will always look more accomplished next to me, which is fine. I've already accepted that I will continue to be the disappointment, but I don't really care. 

Anyways, I love my sisters, so I love supporting them ! I just wish I had the motivation for acedemics like they do.

That's all for now ! I'll probably post later this week talking about which class I decided to get into ! I'm thinking sign language though, but my mind changes a lot, so I'll be back !

~ anastasii ༉‧₊˚.