a bad bad day

4/2/2025 -  had a bad day

So my prayer’s been messed up lately and I just checked my Powerschool before getting in the bus to go home, and my GPA was 2.9 because my Design Tech score was a C and my Personal Leadership grade was a D (which I don’t know why) and my previous grade on Design Tech was an A so that’s why it was 3.1 (lowk just average at this point)

And later on the bus I ripped a blank page from my history notebook and wrote “FUCK YOU” in big letters with a smiley face beside it to put it up on the window because this one 6th Grade Portuguese dude on our bus would hold up two middle fingers at his bus stop at me from outside and I’ve gotten sick of it (even if I’d point out the middle fingers back at him too). 

And so I showed the girl sitting across from me (I sit in the back) and she laughed HARD and so the other girl in front of me saw it too. When I crumpled it, she told me to pass it and so I did. She gave it back, later this other 6th Grade dude (but white) took it and passed to his friend and told him to pass it to the front (where the 5th Graders are) and when they read it, my friend started pointing at the 6th Grade dude but the 5th Graders knew his handwriting wasn’t like that because mine was NICE. Sure I got a compliment from a 6th Grader but he definitely snitched. Ima start real shit once they start having something to do with me. So he did. And so did the rest, but not my friend. I didn’t know what to do, nor had a backup, so I just stated loud and clear from behind “My name is Ammara and I wrote it.” She didn’t believe it before I told her at my stop (our’s was the last) So on the bus she said that she would ‘find out who it might be’ in a hispanic accent like queen I know I’m new in this school and I just joined 4 months ago but I’m sorry and I think it’s right for you to file a report on me. But Allah had my back. And her. Thanks, I guess, Ms. Kristine…

I never swore at anyone on the bus (verbally). I never posed any harm nor offense against anyone on the bus. They were all nice and chill. But not this time. Don’t Snitches get Stitches? Nah I’d talk. I don’t resort to violence. I’d just come the next day and probably be super nonchalant unless something funny comes up (seriously I’d break character). I’m just like that and I don’t fucking care. I had my middle finger up on that 6th Grade dude: two words, one finger. If this same dude has anything to do with me after this Ima just tell him to “shut yo mouth’s work of suck dick eat shit die or hit misfit not slick short dick pussy licker cream sucker late learner retard motor toilet fucker gay nigger fire trucker trans railer face sitter ass slapper butt plugger dick rider bare minimum nutter loner loser slow fapper stale cracker motherfucker bitchass up” like dude, if you think you him, don’t put me in him shit, they shit, it shit, whatever you identify as if yall just fucking snitches Ima burn yall bitches Ima blow your fucking computer up. I ain’t mad I was nice y’know I feel like I wanna quit this bus, like, take a helicopter or something. I don’t want 6th Grade shit. 6th Grade guys here’s terrible. Mad fucking nosy and irritable.

So um… Maybe I’ll have to work on my prayer and my grades. I wanna be a better person tbh. But. I’m just. I’m just not feeling like it right now. Things will change but. I’ll try working on it

Wish me luck

Tomorrow

Bitch like I’m gonna change?

I’ll pass. I am that queen and I will be that diva. Just watch me.