Why am I putting so much effort into my future?

The only drive for me to continue my education is bc my parents didnt immigrate to north america for shit and giggles and spent nearly hundreds and thousands of dollars on my growth and shelter for nothing. like shit i couldve been set up for adoption yk

And like when I see people who are kids of immigrants do tomfoolery and shenanigans around me by skipping school and prioritizing the most randomest shit personally I am praying on your downfall and I hope realize your mistakes in your flawed decision making that will impact your future. AND HOW ARE YOU PARENTS NOT GIVING A SINGLE FUCK like did they give on you THAT quick?!?! 

Mind you I did not have my priorities straight either but it took me a while to figure them out. 

I also carry a "fake it till you make it" perspective. I always tried to reach for a good mark wtv the assignment/exam is and carry a false god complex for it (its corny ik shame on me)

Secondly, I want to end the dependence on men it is a reoccurring pattern in my family like sure older generations' marriage in my family did okay and survived for a long time and they did get married at a young age but I dont know I just dont feel like putting up marriage as my first priority as soon as im done with my studies, because I carry the idea of first putting myself up on the pedestal first by maintaining a good emotional, physical and financial stand before I bring someone in my life. The last thing I want is them to see me struggle and bring them down with me, because I really dont want to be a burden to someone I truly care and love. 

Thirdly, I am also doing this for my sister. My sister was really someone that loves me very much and she expresses it often which really boosts up my motivation to work. Ever since I was maybe 6-8 I prayed for a sibling and alongside I begged my parents for a brother/sister. I knew I could  not survive as an only child. (and even homo sapiens are also naturally very social :>) Ever since she was born I felt great and I felt amazing being around her coming home after work and school I always greeted her with something small. She looked after me at my best and worst times along side with my mom. ngl i am tearing up as i'm writing this paragraph I cant even describe how grateful I am to have her around with me.