February Thurd, '25

Hai! 

I've decided to actually use this as a blog rather than a Twitter-like space and actually write. I think actually talking opens up the opportunity for conversation and more ppl to interact. Even if you don't, I think it's good for the psyche. (MY psyche.) It's 7:29 on a Monday and I'm drinking a "Jamaican Me Happy" Seagrams wine cooler to persuade myself into stalling my procrastination and actually doing my homework. The past week has been rough, I got covid AND the flu and was put on a million and one meds. Today was my first day off of them and I felt good but exhausted. Unfortunately, I have little to no self control and spent the entire time on my phone like a typical 21st Century 19 almost 20 year old and reinforced my very crippling addiction. I really wanna be able to not go on my phone when I'm bored or alone immediately, but I'm not sure how. Regarding the self control previously mentioned, every time I wanna put it down it feels like I physically can't. It's not to the point where I'm on my phone driving or when I'm talking to people or whatever, it's just a really easy escape, and I have crippling FOMO. My anxiety tells me the second I put it down I'm gonna miss breaking world news or a joke that everyone else gets but me. Maybe it's the repercussions of adolescent bullying. Maybe it's Maybelline. I wanna read a lot more than I have. I read more than the average young adult I feel, but not enough as an artist or just a person in history should. I need book recs, but nothing like YA fantasy. I want philosophical stuff like Paulo Friere or some dystopian fiction. I've read most of the classic "banned books", so I want something new. Gimme your best material. 

All love, 

Kenny xx