Kind of an identity crisis

So. Hi. I dont know if recently life is just worse or completely different from before, but I don’t feel content in my identity at all. Like obviously I was born a girl and I love it most of the time, but it also makes me feel icky. As if it’s not right. Help 0-0

It started a while ago, where I thought I was trans. That got cleared up because I started researching and it didn’t really fit myself, you know? But I have a feeling that I, as an autistic individual, can’t find an identity for fuck’s sake. And I know that if I tell my friends only few of them would support or actually encourage it. ..I just don’t feel like a woman. But also not as anything else. But then I feel like everything at the same time. It’s hard to explain. I’m not trans, but I just wish my identity wouldn’t matter. Sadly it does because of society..

To be honest and I dont know if it even makes sense to bring it up, because my family is ignorant, bigoted and terrible, and most people in my life wouldn’t care about it that much or just keep referring to me as a girl. :(