Tomorrow

I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow, it's gonna be a rough one... I couldn't sleep last night, my mind was racing with all these thoughts and emotions, worry, anxiety, etc. I feel sick and I'm trying not to cry today. The thought of not being able to see the 2 people that I love more than anything for a whole year is just unbearable, and has been for 2 months already. I'm missing out on important holidays, my son's upcoming birthday this month, seeing him grow up and learn new things, being able to hug my fiancée when I just need a hug, cuddling, talking about stuff, going places together as a family just the 3 of us. I have no friends, my phone got stolen last month while I was sleeping and couldn't get a new one right away, I'm supposed to be starting work soon but it's taking forever for the process and legal stuff is gonna interfere with that too. I just don't know what to do 😞 I just want my family back, a place for us to live, and for the 3 of us to be happy. None of this was ever meant to happen. We were just in a bad environment, very bad, and it became too much. When it's just us we get along, we love each other so much. I just hope this whole process goes by faster than it is in my head and we can just move on from all this in a positive way. I love and miss E & E.J. so much ❤️❤️❤️ I just don't know what else to say. I'm an emotional wreck 💔

P.S. the no more car sucks, but I hope the 2 of them are ok. That's what matters.