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just a quick rant, I've been observing my friends for a while, I opened up to them since I've been feeling a bit left out. They did tell me to take my time and that it was alright for them that I take a break. But I tried approaching them and they became so dismissive:( Ik I'm oversharing right now, but I have no one else to talk to. I don't have friends to tell and get this off my chest. I really love them, but sometimes I wonder if they also feel the same. I've also been self-evaluating to see whether I was the problem, but I always try my best to keep up with them and put in lots of effort just to show them how much I care for them.

The last time I talked to them (well I don't even think it was a conversation) was Thursday night when we were camping at school. I don't think I'm ready to face them tomorrow. I really don't know what to do :((