college

college. HELP. i dont sleep. im ACTUALLY going insane. 

im not even meant to be in college im there for GCSE's >:(

 i do L1 art and media, I HATE MEDIA (idm art ig i can deal with that) 

but media omg dont even get me started, im SO BAD at it. 

im just waiting for it all to be over nd done with so i can study animal managment >:(

soo uhh i wanted to talk about what media is like for me (btw i was never good with media in school) so, i have media every monday for 2 hours, BUT its the people in my class, media involes alot of making up ur own ideas and i would be fine with that if people wouldnt mke fun of my ideas??? bro. EVERYTIME its always ME, we need to do it on the computor wih a fuck off huge monitor so EVERYONE can see everythin. im trying to do my work and i over hear these 2 people (who are part of the freindgroup i spoke about in "PEOPLE") so that wasnt great tbh. but i came up with my first idea and they commented on it. so i deleted it and came up w my second idea (which was hello kitty and friends btw.) i thought was gnna be fine BUT NO. they make fun of the fact i put "and friends" but last time i checked that was the name of the fcking show. honestly i just deleted it and walked out the classroom, i was on verge of a panic attack (i have anxiety and this group just SETS ME OFF) so i walked out and just sat somewhere quiet on my own for the rest of he lesson, LUCKILY i didnt have the panic attack i was able to calm myself down. BUT OMG, can i not live????

ALSO, tell me WHY people in college are way more immature and childish than people in highschool???? i dont get it, arent they meant to be older?? UGH. theres like this friendgroup on my course, in my classes who have a problem with me for absolutley no reason, i dont speak to these people, i dont even hve any of their socials. but they are so mean, one of my mate who i stick w in college is friends with them (not anymore) coz they randomly started being mean, but then after a while they moved onto me and making fun of what i wear and stuff, i litraly wore pyjama bottoms in coz they are comfy and i was having a lazy day, then i overheard them talking about it and making fun of me for it, BUT yk the crazy thing?? THEY WERE WEARING THEM THE DAY BEFORE. btw it sent me into a panic attack LOL (embarrasing).