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WUGHGHUGHUGH man I've just been feeling Out of it lately, admitidly i bet like a pretty decent chunk of that can be attributed to the fact that i've been spending most of my time on twitter and my shit diet and also the fact that i gotta go back to school this week and Also that i keep on being rejected from jobs and Also that these 4 years jsut started but whateverrrrrrrrrrr We move regardless. 

I'll keep the next blog from being just a complete whine fest but for now imma complain XP

For Starters one thing that just Really pissed me off was that one installation of Portait of Ross (in L.A) that for some reason decided not to provide Any context about the fact that it was dedicated to Felix Gonzalez-Torres' partner or the AIDs crisis??!???? What the fuck???????????????? I know for a fact that there was other things i saw today that was bothersome but that jsut really ruined my mood. Idk man it just feels really shitty right now but like. I Also knwo that jsut being a debbie downer isn't gonna do anything.

Actually you know what I just remembered that Chappell AND Dochii BOTHH won grammys today maybe the world isn't evil and fucked up Actually I quite enjoy it

Yk final complaint but its a smaller one, I havent drawn in a WHILEE and I can't help but feel like both my motivation and technical ability and been on a decline because of it. I really hope this upcoming animation class I got can bring back some of that motivation. I also really hope I actually make some friends this semester :-( I feel so lonely sometimes at school, especially since the only friends I Do have that go to my school are barely gonna be on campus at the same time as me <//3

Maybe that's why i've been a bit unmotivated ? Don't get me wrong i've Definitely spent a bunch of time with my friends and family these past couple months but like. I've also definitely spent a lot of time couped up in my nasty ass room doom scrolling >m< yeahhhhh thats Probabllyyyy itttt. Sighhhhh I need to learn to log off. Hopefully the next welcome home update can spark smth

Ah well, that all i got for rn BUT i will say that I've been meaning to get down my thoughts on severance for a while now so that'll probably be what my next blog its about lolololol okay BAIII