Late-night random thoughts

(This blog entry will be some random thoughts I had late in the night, some of it can not make sense to you, in which case, feel free to comment your point of view, without further ado, let's start)

So, I've been thinking about how our experiences shape us as people, how they form us to be, and how in some ways they "define" how we are as adults. Life can sometimes be hard, and we sometimes get feelings that we don't know where they come from, for example, when you are watching a movie or maybe you see or hear something, it can be anything, but it generates a connection in your mind, it makes you feel something, maybe you feel happy, maybe you feel sadness, it can even be anger, and for our conscious mind it might not even make sense, but there we are, experiencing something without realizing where it comes from or why it makes us feel how it does.

Sometimes in our minds, there are some memories hidden really deep in our own selves, so I can't help but wonder, does this affect our life in some other ways that we don't realize? Maybe it impacts the way we relate with each other, our ability to understand each other, to feel empathy, maybe it impacts even deeper on how we are as a person in ways we aren't even conscious about, the impacts that these experiences could have maybe will never be fully understood, they can make us better or worse people, but people at the end of the day.

While I was thinking that, I dove even deeper into this rabbit hole I just created for myself (and now you, I guess), I wondered how love, happiness, trauma, and abandonment can impact people in their lives. For context, I am a social worker, I don't have that much experience mainly because of my age, but in this short period, I've been able to see people who sometimes act in ways I can't fully understand at first glance, for example, people that are mean exclusively to people that care about them, other persons that do the absolute opposite of what they are told even if they are being instructed towards something that would benefit them in some way, others that no matter the situation, would always choose the worst option possible every time and be stubborn about it, and even in stronger cases, people that hurt others just to please someone else that hurts them as well.

Could it all have been different if those people experienced less loneliness? less abandonment? What if they had the chance to experience happiness, care, and love? Would they have evolved to be different people? Or maybe they were born a certain way that no matter what it couldn't be changed? Is there anything we can do to help people like that when they don't want to be helped? And what about ourselves? Do we need assistance in assessing our own feelings or maybe we just need to stop for a while, and listen to ourselves, be in peace for a while, in silence, without the constant noise of the world, and listen to our inner selves, to tell us what we need to improve or maybe tell us what we need to let go? I feel like those questions can be answered only by ourselves, with the peace that the night gives us.

And regarding other people, with situations we can't control, with feelings and experiences that maybe we can't understand or maybe don't share the same point of view about how they react to them, is there anything we can do to help? Is there a way to help someone who doesn't want to be helped? Maybe a collective effort would work? Even if so, are we ready as a society to help each other out when we need it the most? Can we tolerate ourselves even in the worst of times to help each other to get out of the holes that they've been trapped in their whole lives? Only time will tell.

I'm sorry this blog entry doesn't really go anywhere, as the title says, these are just late-night random thoughts, but maybe it made you think about something or someone you know, maybe even yourself, if that was the case, I'd love to read your thoughts and comments, maybe we can have a philosophical talk about them and actually get somewhere with our thoughts.

I hope you all have a great week and stay safe, bye everyone!!