fear

gotta break up w my boyfriend with i move. we're running outta time, still gotta a couple months. Sometimes i wish i was older, grown, we could get an apartment and some cats. But, we're still in high school. So that can't happen. Maybe we'll meet when we're older, even if we'll live in different countries. Maybe chance will bring us back together. I know i'm scared of growing old, and losing myself in the process, but times like this I wish I had the independence of an adult. I'm practically 18, but I feel so young and naive, and I still need to finish school. So, I wish I was older, that way, no matter how scared I was, he was with me. 

But he can't be.