Late Night Thoughts: Talking

Ughh okay. I don’t know how people do it. Seriously I’ll look around in my class and see my classmates talking to each other and they just do it so naturally??? Every time I talk with someone it’s always calculated, like I need to respond this way or they’ll think I’m a weirdo and they’ll never talk to me again. BUT I END UP RESPONDING AWKWARDLY ANYWAY SO IT’S LIKE (ㅍ_ㅍ)

It’s even worse that I’m not really into popular medias like anime, musicals or sports, so that’s even less stuff to talk about or bring up silly references to with people … why do I live under a rock.

I can’t even talk to my friend I’ve known for like 6+ years (We are sorta drifting apart, though) because I just have nothing to say anymore. Does anyone else calculate what to say in a conversation most of the time??? What will make people laugh the most? Or get them to talk more? Jeez. Socializing is hard and I’m gonna blame COVID for it