Journal Entry #2

Crossposting from LJ againnnn....

I am off-limits; God's darling.

I want to say it is all the things wrong with me, but I'm pretty sure it's just me.

I am worthy of love in the way all things on earth are. I was born to live, to enjoy good things and create better things. I am human, most of all. But there is something inside me that I am not privy to---that keeps everyone else an arm's-length away.

I want to cry when I think of someone telling me, I Love You, and meaning it---because no one has ever meant it in the only way that matters to my mixed-up heart. It is hungry---constantly needing more, never satiated, never satisfied with what I have already been given, so graciously---and I don't deserve even that.

With all the love I lack (and all the love that I want back),

Me.