vent sorta

uhh diz iz kinda a vent but not taken too seriously tbh

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i feel left out from my bestie when she hangz out with someone else infront of meh, shez the best person to meh but something is off when i sit with iriloom (irl friend iriloom is js her yt) , maria (my bestie), and nada (her friend/classmate who i talk to a bit) n more

like even iriloom noticed but she didn’t point it out infront of maria and everyone else and told me when maria left the call we were in yesterday of playing dw (bc nada arrived to her house bc they were gonna go to a playing area sorta place i like)

 this happenz multiple timez, in art class we go to the school basement to go to the art room, when we come back nada and maria do a race of me and them (nada and maria go together at the same speed next to each other and i have to catch up with them) but itz really tiring bc sometimez at school i feel either tired, dizzy, or annoyed and stuff like that, when i finally reach to class i can’t keep in my annoyedness or anger or whatever and i accidentally raise my voice, i was saying that i felt left out and maria cried, said i was shouting only bc her and nada were playing without me n my mom found out and got mad at me n yelled at me a bit 

 my mom is tired of me hanging out with her every week but when i don’t her and nada get to hang out and talk alllll week and i’ll js look at them :/   

i get left out a lot and it js hurtz. this isn’t only abt nada, actually also with my other bestie farah (she moved away but diz iz b4 she did) n her and maria talked with each other so much n if i wasnt friendz with farah i would never meet maria n i luv them but idk wut to do anymore i’m not saying shez a bad person i’m saying that i js want her to go back to normal n stop leaving me out