this week.. and my experience on prozac

this week was so weird. i had my first ever psychiatrist appointment on wednesday for my adhd diagnosis and it was way easier than i thought ? i thought they will be running test the whole time like taking blood and all that other stuff but literally didnt. i just told him about the things i struggle with and he put me on fluoxetine (prozac). he gave me an appointment for adhd testing on the 20th february and im in this paris a day before for the the hellp concert i dont know how to manage this..

either way he gave me 20mg for the beginning and i have been taking them since 2 days now. its my first time on antidepressants and idk if this is placebo but i swear i feel more alive ig ? i feel like waking up after a refreshing nap but like all the time..i dont have trouble getting up for work and i think it kinda helps my social anxiety. and i get shit DONE i took all the trash out got groceries and all this after work. normally i barely cook after work and be so exhausted that i go to bed immediately. after that i watched signs that alien movie with joaquin phoenix and i swear i see colors more brighter. that movie has very pretty color grading but man i didnt see and appreciate pretty things like before. got to bed and i fell asleep without a effort. i had a dream about pyramidhead and a slimmer taller pyramidhead called the revenant and they fought in my living room. last time i dreamt things like this was when i was 7. i love dreaming and i think the fluoxetine brought my dreams back i barely dreamed before.

when i woke up this morning all i wanted to do was tell my family about my experience with it. like everyone.. i only sometimes tell my mom about things in my life but im very secretive about the things going on in my life especially with family.

also i have to help a good friend of mine moving tomorrow and i dont want to :(( i just wanna relax