small update, just my thoughts, not necessary to be posted but helps me think more. im very stressed atm

just a few things on my mind need to organize 

I should take care of my mental and physical health more. I think taking CBD is a good thing for both, I've found it really helps me a lot. I think i should take my time. I need to practice being more in the moment and feel more in my body. I guess thats why the CBD helps. it helps me for more at ease in my body. I think at this point in my life its the only thing that makes me feel safe anymore. without it, i cant really be in my body and mostly uncomfortable. i also need to eat more because i am concerningly skinny and my doctor said that i need to eat more or stop going to the gym because im losing fat i dont have to lose. but i am broke so eating is at a minimum

I have work tomorrow morning and I love to wake up early and take my time getting ready for my shift. They switched my second client to Saturday because another CG wanted my Friday shift so I'll be having an earlier day on Fridays ^_^. 

Going to schedule my exam tomorrow when I get paid so I can finally find a better job!! I feel like this will solve a lot of my problems and lift a weight off my shoulders. Ive been putting it off bc I don't want to fail and have to pay for the exam again lol. But I think I just need to get over it!! 

Tomorrow I'll have more time to study and take notes to better prepare for the exam, clean up my place, maybe go grocery shopping. And perhaps the gym.

the gym I go to is 24 hours mon-thurs. i like to go when its almost empty because i feel more comfortable so i like to go in the later hours. i always bring my pepper spray and alarm because i usually leave around 1:30 or 2am.

tomorrow i want to wake up early, have my matcha and vegetable croquete and take off to work, get off at 2pm and study at a cafe, come home and clean and grocery shop make lunch/dinner and maybe the gym if i am feeling brave. 

if anyone has an anime they can recommend, i am in need of a new show. I want to watch apothecary diaries but i dont have crunchy roll. right now all Im doing is rewatching cowboy bebop bc its my comfort show. waiting for part two of beastars, (im not a furry!!!!! but once i started the show it had me gagged and by the neck, was clutching my pearls. dont know why it healed something in me even though it is lowkey weird but dont all animes have some weird component in them that wasnt totally necessary??? beastars is GOOD yall im saying) maybe ill watch jjk again idk.