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while living i experience constant need to look better, learn more, be more kind, more selfless, educate myself on every topic ever, read more book, listen to different genres of music...
although its good that i'm aware that i have so many flaws its also making me feel like everyone can clearly see them and judge me. sometimes it feels as though everyone is better than me in every aspect and like they all have everything planned and everything going for them.
its really isolating to feel like you are just and outsider and bystander in every social context and i only feel included when i'm with close friends. i love that they know who i am and that they perceive me accurately.
my goal in life is to be as versatile as a person can be and i would then feel successful and fullfilled.
it sucks feeling like you're just stuck in one place and that's why we long for change.
i hope im not the only one experiencing these emotions and struggles. ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧
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⚝Watcher⚝
Ohh,you're not alone on that one.
Changes and improvements are always good,the only thing i want to warn about is please don't overexert just to make yourself sick from thoughts about not being enough.Don't expect yourself to act and be perfect — you're not a robot,you can't be completely flawless (and neither are you transparent,you only spook yourself thinking that people can see you through and notice each little mishap).So good thing that you have people who ground you and love you for...well,for you.⊂(・﹏・⊂)
thank u sm for this, even tho i know all those things it doesnt stop these thoughts from consuming me. but it feels nice knowing that someone understands me <33
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It will get better eventually.★
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