i love vomiting (maybe a tw?)

i LOOVVVEE throwing up. this might be a bit tmi for some but i absolutely love throwing up. i throw up ALL the time. its just so stress relieving. whenever im stressed i just make myself throw up. all the emotion just leaves my body alongside the vomit. ive made myself throw up so much i dont have a gag reflex anymore. obviously i hate having a stomach ache and i hate vomit but just the action of throwing up is so releaving. all the pain and sadness that i harboured with that tummy ache leave the second the vomit does. throwing up just fills me with unadulterated happiness, i dont even mind the aftermath of it. thats how happy it makes me. i dont like the sight of throw up though. or the smell. just the feeling of throwing up.