help

i hate mixed signals so much

my friend (who i stopped beign friends with then started to be friends w again) is beign weird asl. i told him that he needs to be paitent with me and be understanding because i am seriously mentally ill and he knows that, but he keeps fucking getting mad at me for being.. mentally ill. because im distant. like hello??? and i am just so confused trying to explain im literally rotting from the inside out, distant is the least of my worries. 

im really frustrated and just struggling so much so here is my pussy ass complaint