how writing & music helps me

This is literally just going to be me writing about writing.

Writing has been a huge help for me and something I've loved doing since I was little. It's always been an easier way for me to communicate and let my feelings out. Talking about it out-loud has just never done it for me. I feel like when I verbally try to express myself or my feelings, i tend to leave points out that I also want to let out or talk about, it's also just extremely difficult for me to speak of things on the spot because I can't find the words for it. When I have a personal or remotely emotional conversation with someone, I get nervous and never get to say things right, but when I write, I can truly let everything out with ease. 

Writing is something that helps me stay grounded, it lets me really think about how I'm feeling about something and process it better. I'm a person that tends to bottle feelings up or ignore my feelings because I don't want to feel a certain way or I want to ignore it all, but that just leads to a lot of confusion and mess in my head and mental space, so writing helps organise everything up there in my brain.

Music definitely also plays a big role on how I express myself and communicate. Music has always been a big part of my life. I grew up in a very musically moved and influenced family, which I will always be grateful for. I find it so fascinating how we can just express ourselves and let our feelings out into a song and make it so beautiful. Music that I can relate to helps me feel understood, and less alone. This helps me big time because for a lot of my life, I've felt like people don't really get what I try to say, but finding a song that I can relate to and has the things I long to say is the greatest feeling ever. 

When I have really intense emotions or experiences that have greatly impacted me, I try to write my own songs about them. Sometimes I don't like how they sound after a while, but I'm just grateful I was able to let it out in a way that I've always dreamed of doing it. I hope one day my songwriting improves, and I get to share it with the world and maybe even help people.

I guess thats all I have to say about writing right now. I'm not sure how many people will see this, but to anyone that does, I hope you like it! I'm definitely planning on writing here more. :)