ranting on my spacehey blog episode 2 billion

for the last maybe 2 months now my name just hasn't felt like my name. it just feels like a word or a title compared to anything. I don't know if i jst grew out of it but it seems like a gender crisis if anything,, ive been questioning if im genderfluid for like a week or so now but i don't really ever feel female and i kind of reject all femininity in my life so if anything im genderfaunet which would probably make sense for me but idk. i dont hate my name i dont think but i dont enjoy having it. i dont know if anyone else expirences this but i hope i dont seem insane for this. kill me now T_T