idk life is weird + random question! :D

hello!2! currently I've been updating my profile, i figure out of to put stamps and i think they look so cute >0<

yesterday the person I've been kind of going out with came over my house, we did a lot of stuff and for some reason i feel very strange, I liked them a lt, they are very nice but I feel like I'm not enough fro them. there's certain things that always happen to me when I try to fall in love with someon, and for some reason I always end up avoiding theirlove and blocking my feelings, I hate that i'm like this ToT i wish i could know why i do it and how to solve it, BUT IDK HOWWWW.

i'm really fearful of hurting them, and i promised to myself that i would talk this with them, but how can i do that without hurting them? how do it tell them like "hey i do this weird thing taht when I love someone i push them away and start ghosting them." THERE IS NO NORMAL WAY TO SAY THAT. idk whats happening to me, perhaps im just not built for serious relationships.

ANYYWAYSSS i wanted to do a random question for myself and for anyone else to answer if they feel like it! i think it would be fun.

What do you wish you had more time to do?

mmm, i would love to have more time in life in general so i could procrastinate with no guilt that I could be doing something more productive in my free time. I think i don't need more time but more discipline and motivation to do stuff, but everything feels so exhausting lately ToT.

feel free to answer in the comments! thx for reading if u did