I cut my hair

"And she cried

over nothing

so there was nothing I could do to stop

her from cutting

her beautiful blue hair off"

On Saturday, Jan 25 2025, my friend said that they wanted to talk to me. I was confused because they seemed to be so serious, after some time I figured out what they wanted to tell me. They waited for school to end and they invited me to ho out for lunch. My chest was heavy, my heart beating so hard. I knew what they were about to say.

We sat at the table of a bar, we ordered some toasts to eat, and then I asked: "so, what did you want to talk about?" silence.

They were all looking at me with an awkward face. Then one of them said: "Who starts?".

They talked, talked and talked for almost an hour, while I was holding back my tears. It was cold because we were sitting outside and the sky was covered, not a single ray of sunshine, so I started shaking. I couldn't even speak, my voice was cracking. 

They told me that I was not okay and they were tired of my behaviors. They said that they would like me to go to see a therapist because "these behaviors of yours are not those of a person who is mentally well". I didn't know what to say. They told me that they wanted me to get better, so I get them. I am aware that I am not feeling well lately.

While I was on my way back home I watched the sky. What a perfect weather, there were clouds everywhere and the sun didn't shine at all, but it was not raining; just like that, my face was dark, sad, scared, but not a single tear had wet my eyes.

When I got home I didn't cry, even if I was so scared I was gonna lose them. But i decided to chop all my long hair off. I want to change and I want to be well.