Making A Change for the Better

Why did I get into so many aspects of art? I love music, writing, reading, drawing, creating,  being crafty, and a lot of stuff beyond this. Whenever my thinking began to get depressive and I started bullying myself, I always remembered what I had to keep me going in this life other than my religion or family.

During quarantine, I was almost a high schooler, and many things happened. I lost my friends and became less social. I learned the hard way that many things aren't as they seem. Because I was bored, I watched a lot of YouTube videos and other things when I came across manga. I hadn't read anything before, and I was really invested in Japanese comics. What drew me in, other than the story, was the art.

It was really expressive and interesting to see different art styles. It reminded me of when I was in the 3rd and 4th grade making comics with my friend at the time, and the comic that ultimately was thrown out(for reasons regarding religion). I remember I actually cried and decided never to draw again.

But now, I am fueled by what other people make. The need to draw and write is literally engineered into me. I think about my stories every day; I'm a literal daydreamer. I'm still glad I can get stuff done, though.

That's why I want to improve this year. I can see myself getting better every time I pick up my pencil and draw or study. I actually look forward to it because it is fun to see myself improve. Even when I feel like my art is trash,I know that each time I do, I get dopamine and a tiny voice in my brain telling me to continue to do better.

It also brings up other things for me to try to do. I really want to try photography...