27/01/2024

Dear future me,

 Do you ever get the feeling that your crush likes your back, well I do, but then you remember that life isn’t a movie and that he probably doesn’t. Do you also get the feeling that you might just have really high standards, although the only one is that I'd never date anyone who overly gossips, even though like all the females in my year LOVE to gossip. I would rather talk about the Muppets or Biology or something like that because why think about someone else’s life so much. I would hate it if someone thought about my life, I mean I don’t like it when people even know my name, like sorry but you probably didn’t know me like two years ago so why do you know now, I know it’s ok for me to know your name but you actually like talking to people and I mean it’s not like I don’t it’s just that I would rather be by myself. You know. (I know that probably makes 0 sense.

Anyway,, my crush is the person I wanted to talk about in the first place, not some person whose nickname is Curtain. Anyway CRUSH, his smart and I think nice, even though one time in class he got really angry at his friend for throwing away his pen in the bin, like really mad. And swore at him, btw I’ve never sworn ever not because I’m religious just because I think that swearing contains a lot of negative feelings that I do not want to express, I was kind of taken back and a little scared at the sudden realisation that everyone swears and that in my future I will probably swear as well. Since then his done a lot of things to redeem himself, like actually doing the book crush lean on a door (that makes sense), like the one that makes girls go red, like the “he leans on the door looking into her eyes, trying to impress her” kind of lean, and he was INFRONT on me, I think it was intentional but at the same time, my life isn’t a movie. He also smiles at me, and I feel like the amount of times we’ve made eye contact there has be something there. I hope. Soooo I've rambled on for too long, if you like hearing about my crush please let me know because I have so much to tell.