Goals for 2025, and what I've achieved already! (kinda long)

FIRST OF ALL- SORRY IT HAS BEEN SO LONG!! I have been busy with church and working on some of my goals that I just didn't have much energy to do anything besides my nightly journal. It may be the end of January, but better late than never!

Some of my most notable goals this year are:

1. Finish my portfolio

2. Fix my sleep schedule

3. Get a job

4. Work out consistently

5 .Eat healthier

6. Commit to gyaru

7. Use the things you already own before buying more

8. Be more generous, and less afraid to spend money.

9. HEAL

10. Fall in love fr (or at least have your first kiss?)

here how they're going for me:

1. The portfolio I'm making is specifically for job applications. My goal was to get it done by the end of the month, and I'm actually almost done, but there are a lot of tedious little things I need to work on that are bothering me a lot.... I have two days left and I don't know if they'll be enough, but I'll try my best to make it enough, instead of giving up so easily and hoping that the beginning of february is when I can get it done. I've seen so much growth in my skills just working on this portfolio and it's really made my heart so whole. Gloria Deo (to God be the glory).

2. Going great! My body has gone from waking itself up at 1pm to 10am to around 11, but that's only because I've messed up my schedule ever so slightly. I'm doing my best to wake up at 8am during the weekday, but unfortunately I sometimes get a bit greedy and sleep in until 9-11am. But even then, that's a huge improvement from 1pm.

3. Working on it. It really relies on my finishing the portfolio, so there's only so much I can do..

4. Going absolutely horrible. HAHA. I have yet to have a consistent full week of excersise; I always miss one day, or say I'm going to do it then forget. this week I'm going to try my best though, because I want to end and start strong.

5. Going great! Currently I am a vegetarian, and I intend on being so with rare periods where I will eat meat. I won't be eating pork though. That's a meat I'm pretty firm on not eating. I have also been combatting my sugar cravings! I was doing a good job until I stumbled upon a fresh chocolate chip muffin... (my biggest weakness!) I ate it and got an ugly zit on my face, so I guess that was my payback. Either way though, I feel a lot less groggy when I wake up (some of it being contributed to my low iron), and I'm eating 10 times more than I usually do which is helping me put on some healthy weight! Hopefully it helps me fill out this cute little juicy coture bra LOL.

6. It's going amazing!!! Commiting to gyaru is the greatest thing I've done in a minute. Its really helped me care less about what people think of me, and helps me find ways to be the happiest version of myself! It actually matches a lot of the substyles I'm already into, so now I can look more coherent! thank God, lol. I still have a long ways to go in terms of confidence, but I'm really getting there.

7. For this one, I'm really focusing on reading books, playing games, and not starting any new projects away from the things I'm working on. This has really helped me with being a finisher, and has saved my wallet and room.... I picked up doll customizing again, and I do have plans to play my ps2 games more, but for tonight, I'm playing Baulder's Gate 3. My friend didn't spend all that money for no reason...

8. I haven't noticed many opportunities to be generous, but when it comes to money spending, I went on a trip to the thrift store alone (which going outside just for fun is definitely up there on my list), and I bought every single thing in the cart. I bought something I've been wanting for years, then I bought some things I just thought would be nice to have. I've used almost everything except for this one belt I bought. I don't have the tights for the dress I intended on wearing it with.

9. Going great so far? Only thing is I only realized what that would look for me this year like - a few days ago lol. It's good to start somewhere, and It's brought up a few heavy things for me, but I'm already feeling the positive effects of it :)

10. Pushing this one to the side for nowwwww. I'm super quick to crush on guys, but honestly speaking, unless I heal, my type is bound to be warped as hell. I also want people to see the Sebastian that is the best version of herself, rather than the Sebastian who is still acting based on past traumas and wounds. Even if it's in the case of us only sharing a kiss once.

overall. I'm a big fan of January, even if she's had her bad moments. I'm so excited to see what unfolds this year :3

xoxo,

Seb