i h8 school

i h8 school so much, everyone is so mean

let me give examples for why i feel this way

>im in hope squad (funny enough im not even sure why they let me in or why i was reccommended in) and my school has a talent show every school year and hope squad decided to participate 

>i went out of my comfort zone and volunteered to construct it, i gathered all the people, set of practices, everything

>we did boom sticks which was stupid but i didn't care about what we were doing, i just wanted to be apart of something where i had people to talk to and say "good job" "good practice" or whatever and i wanted people to ask me questions so i could respond like i know what im talking about

>some people skipped practices entirely so i took one person's role because they never showed up to practice

>on the day of the talent show we all had to sit on the first row and when i say we i mean them. our boom sticks were on the chairs and someone who never showed up to the practices was sitting in the chair with mine

>i ended up having to sit on the floor alone and they performed without me and acted like nothing happened and no one even said good job or anything to me like i didnt put the whole thing together in the first place

>i ended up crying my eyes out and hiding in the conference room upstairs until i got picked up

>i didnt even care about the talent show i just wanted to be apart of something for once, i wanted so bad to be accepted

i h8 school

second example

>i was sitting alone outside and i was just reading manga and eating my lunch and these two moids walked past and sat at the table by the tree across from me

>at first i didn't think much of it but then one of them (the fat cunt) said "no one is out here and i dont wanna sit by this nobody" as he stared directly at me and nodded his head thinking i couldnt see out of the corner of my eye

>they ended up leaving and didnt talk to me directly which was a plus but still i dont appreciate being called a nobody

>i gotta be somebody right??? they dont even know my name and i dont know theirs like whats their problem- why do people dislike me so much

i dont understand why people dislike me so much even though i dont know them and they dont know me, i really dont understand- am i ugly or unnaproachable?