I am currently on death row

Welp, this wasn't what I thought was on this week's menu 😏🤓

As you may know if you've been catching up on the catsoneverything.bandcamp.com lore you'll know that I was on the run from the police for many crimes and was caught inside of a Dollar General that was intertwined with a Pizza Hut, and I am now being readied for the firing squad.

The cops were so nice to not only give me 3 broken bones and torn appendages as well as a black eye, but they allowed 24 hours of unrestricted internet access. My parents gave me that too, now i am who I am, which isn't a good thing, because mama I'm a criminal 🎵 mama I'm a criminal 🔥🖋 criminal

While I'm waiting for my inevitable comeuppance, I have had time to think about my personality and my overall person alone. I've never liked me, truthfully. Everybody has a sense of self degradation of course, and it's sometimes used as a comedy bit which undermines the perception onto mentally unwell people, but that aside I understand like I'm not unique for seeing myself in a more disdained way. I mean, should I even be sad or pitiful, I should instead be more angry of how ungrateful I've been my whole existence. Really, I've been given the chance at the invaluable inexpensive gift of life and to live in the modern age where I have to worry less on survival, and I spend my days sorrowful because I don't like my body ??? I should be ashamed frankly.

Also, my personality, I am very very rude. It honestly is baffling how I'm always thinking "Oh why does no one talk to me? Boohoo" when I'm just always mean. I don't blame people for not liking me frankly because I am a terrible person, I'm not funny I'm not nice I'm not like this silly smooth brained gremlin silly person, I'm just a horrible person. I'm just so centred on hatred and being disrespectful and mean. I always preach optimistic opinions, say kind words or attempt to be funny but in actuality I'm just a jerk. I'm not a positive person and nothing's changing that, ever. I just am such a disgusting being who is disgusted of themselves but always is disgusted of their perception of themselves because of how disgusting they are, it's a vicious cycle. I'm so immature. I'm a lost cause frankly.

I remember so many times just unjustifiably cutting people off and breaking and ruining friendships over my own ego. So many times I just stopped messaging people for no reason, and in turn making others empathise for me when I am at fault, when I am the reason people abandon me. It's not something to be sad for, I am the problem. I'm the person you should be condemning. I am not a good person.

Don't treat me like a good person.

Okie dokie, anyhoos, I am currently being escorted out of my cell to eat my final meal yummy! Buh Bye everybody !!!