Andrew in Drag

God I love him. He, just having that silly little feeling he causes, makes everything so electric. All of the paragraphs and the letters and the fucking everything. It's all so amazing. He causes his random interest and happiness in just the mention of his name. I get all giddy and start smiling- it's really fucking cheesy whenever someone brings him up. It's embarrassing, but it's about him, so I don't care. If he reads this, he'll know it's about him. He makes me just so fucking happy and it's so dumb and gay. Honestly, He/It ( the topic at hand) makes me feel  so much better about being queer. I love being queer, WITH HIM. I find some pride in being trans because of it all. It sounds dumb, but I swear, it leads back to him. Or maybe, I've just accepted my identity more and more. I'm getting a haircut today, and I think it will DEF help. I don't know, he's just been on my mind CONSTANTLY FOR MONTHS. I'm writing letters over and over, trying to make the perfect one for him. I just got stamps and I'm going to send them to him one at a time. This is so like dumb and i've said that so much but I MEAN IT UGHGHUHG. Whatever. I love him and I'm more than okay with that. I'm done trying to convince myself I can be straight or at least bi and conform. I love him and I only love him.