being perceived (YUCKKKKK!!)

I dunno WHAT or WHY it feels so weird 2 post sometimes. i really have been trying to not overthink on how ppl perceive me but it's an inevitable feeling @ the end of the day 4 me yk? like I LUVVVV Instagram & the concept of it (tho to hell with mark z <3) but lots of ppl have watered it down with their judgements and just overall weird perspective of "showing off" and not just having fun with it. like I have so many of photos of trees and different random pictures I think would be a vibe 2 post on my main Instagram but I teeter away due to nerves. & I do have a spam account that I just recently started posting on again but I still feel judged despite it supposedly being a "safer place 4 me 2 post" what I want. I REALLLLLLY want 2 break out of this cycle of caring what ppl think but it's a lot easier said than done. I don't know if any1 else feels like this 4 social media in general but I hope we can make social media FUN again as a whole collective. i also hope in the future I can feel more comfy with posting what I want & just living life 2 the fullest bc with how crappy life and society has been/is going 2 continue 2 b, I will be romanticizing the hell out of my life more because we're all gonna die eventually on a floating planet in space yk? i dunooooooo that's my 10:55pm spill 4 this evening.