whimsy day

me and my family went to a big family gathering yesterday. the place was a house in a village, once owned by my great grandparents, 2 hours away from home and pass by many other villages. the quick zigzags we took through the hills and mountains gave me a mild headache. 

some cool, quieter experiences i really enjoyed. i was in my head a lot. i cherish these feelings 

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I only found out we were going the morning my mom woke me up. had me pouting for a while but i drank a mix of concerningly sugary hot chocolate and the creamiest coffee brand ive ever had. my dad used the mug i liked but i was too lazy to wash it so i used his beer glass. this was all i had for breakfast, aside for the gummies i bought when we stopped at a convenience store

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i see a lot of wild plants and trees on these kinds of trips through these mountains. small thing i sketched. it was shaky :< also was gonna redo a short story i wrote for my school's writing club april last year so i tried to write down the elements in it. vvvery fun

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i felt pretty yesterday :3 hehe. my skin seemed okay, i wore a shirt i like and pants i felt really comfortable in, my fav earrings, brought my comfort hoodie, and my hair was better than i expected. i was sad i forgot to wear the bracelets i liked but i know they'll feel super uncomfortable on my wrist and i wouldn't stop fidgeting them. 

this shirt fits with anything i love it. it says "feelings are cool". weird thing is, i have no idea where it came from. where did i buy this...?? 

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i had a looot of thoughts. i was thinking a lot about,, connections and things, how grateful i am and things i hope for, celestial beings, social life. repeatedly. it not sure why, as in, i feel like i should've had more interesting things to think about. kind of related but last saturday, 6 out of 13 hours of my screentime is spent on my notes app somehow. an unhealthy amount of healthy thoughts, i guess?

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my family was first to arrive, and i had nothing to do. the sky there felt so much closer and the air was chilly. i was just walking around the place, bored, full of thoughts, unfortunately no internet. the street and sidewalks was wide open, totally different from the city. and all i saw are old wooden houses, quiet and still. just a little further, visible from there is a flickering sign of a convenience store. my mom said these roads are safe. i didn't want to be there any longer so i asked my dad for money and went. thought and thought and thought, petted some puppies, thought again, legs hurt bc the road goes upwards from there.

(heh.....no peeking)

when i got to the convenience store i thought, what now? i just stood under their AC sweating and resting my knees. this is a village and i really looked like some city teen with all i was wearing. i bought bubblegum and candies that would've fit in my pockets because it'd be embarrassing to be seen as some teen, tired like hell just to buy herself chips lmao
getting out, it started raining and i had to run through the neighborhood back. its been a while since i last stood (or ran) in rain that much. luckily i was already inside when the rain really started pouring. 

we went back home by around 9pm. stopped at convenience store again cus i had to use the bathroom. when i was buying my mom's snack on her behalf, i was sleepy but i was sure i saw pure white fairy swaying around near the cashier. i think it was a moth tho. i kind of zoned out when i had to pay, it was kind of embarrassing. just a whimsy little ending :]

thats it!!! thanks for reading!! sorry if its boring or anything, i just wanted to document this. pixels r so cute 

and i think blogs or these things should have a simplified mode. idk, i struggled trying to readjust texts and only using those buttons and sometimes i dont feel like typing in "<style>" and all that. just a small rant ehe

 byebye....... have a good one

-- Jan 28, 2025