ROMANCE BRUH

I'm a bisexual girl who wants to be in a relationship cuz of those cute and romantic couple things but also doesn't want to bc of they could be cheating and other stuff and I'm not into intimate s3xual stuff and that person might or wanna get married and have kids, I don't want kids, but I also see more of myself being in a relationship with a girl more than a guy. And when I picture myself in a relationship I find it cute at first and then when I go into deep thought about I lose interest in it. But I never dated in my life, what is wrong with me dude.