being wlw in china sucks ass

living in china and being wlw is the worst. I lowkey am so upset cus my ex gf broke up with me bc she didnt want to be gay, she litterally went to convertion camp and got a bf because of me. Everyone at school doesnt talk to me bc they think i will "infect" them. i honestly just want to love someone and be in a wlw relationship, but i litteraly cant :( .anyone relate?