liking rarepairs - it's not like i'm doing this to be different im just suffering man

okay so not all of my ships are rarepairs (one of my biggest ships back in the day was literally HUGE like crazy huge) but oh my god sometimes i get so damn attached to one and its like??? why. sometimes they actually have canon content but for some reason the fandom doesn't care that much, other times it's just my overactive imagination working too well. i just made a fanfic for a ship that not only is like. part of a kinda dead rn fandom but it also had exactly 4 fics on ao3. idk why im crazy about them I MEAN i have a whole world in my head i just don't know how the hell that happened??? i didn't just go to fanfiction.net and goddamn wattpad I WENT TO PIXIV AND READ THEIR JAPANESE FANFICS.... THATS HOW DESPERATE I WAS T T i do not like rarepairs to be quirky okay THIS SHIT IS HELL TAKE ME BACK TO MY POPULAR SHIP PHASE AAAAAARGHHH