this is cancer

I cried so much today. I cried because I’m so tired of feeling sick. I cried because I’m so tired of being in pain and having pain inflicted upon me. Being poked, prodded, tested, multiple IVs going at once. Medications burning my veins. I cried just thinking about the next three treatments. I cried because I’m tired of being strong and brave. I cried because im tired of not feeling normal. I cried because I don’t look familiar anymore. Then I cried because I was crying.