baby fever

I want a baby SOOO bad yall its driving me insane. the amount of baby fever and post-partum videos i have saved is unbelievable. i already have everything ready. id be a GREAT mother. i religiously watch those post partum or delivery videos where mothers give advice to other upcoming mothers about what to do and how to make the delivery go smoother as if im about to pop a baby out any day now. honestly the worst part about having a baby is the sex part. i do NOT want a man inside of me. that just irks me in so many ways. how can that be attractive?? and HES going to nut in ME??? i feel like the pregnancy part would be a more pleasant experience. ive seen women describe it as either the worst or best moments of their lives. you best believe its going to be MY best moment. yeah maybe ill throw up every morning and the giving birth part is probably excrutiating but have you SEEN babies?? id give birth a billion times if it meant id have those cute little things with me all day long. and i dont even mind cleaning up vomit and shit and whatnot. as long as it comes out of MY baby its beautiful. yall BEST BELIEVE id be an amazing mother. youll find me listening to "not alot, just forever" by adrianne lenker because you KNOW i could be a good mother i just dont wanna be your wife.