Is it just me but when i have a fixation i dont know what to do?

Like for example i have this like fixation on Homestuck, i can't stop talking about it, i made the horns for like 4 trolls out of clay, i made Vriska's shirt using paint, i reference it, i draw it, i think about it i dream about it...but i don't have merch..i don't even know what to do with this fixation

Like do i dress like them?i don't even have merch or diys of them..NOT EVEN KANDI OF HOMESTUCK..like what do i do? do i just sit here and be a nerd til i pass away? i don't even own one of the 12 official troll shirts from Hussie's website..NOT EVEN THE LARGE EXPENSIVE HARDCOVER BOOKS...I only got sketches of Vriska and Karkat that i drew myself..and my computer to read it on..IDK WHAT TO DOOOO