Angry and upset right now :( (vent)

I'm just feeling so upset right now. I feel really lied too and I don't even have an answer or an explanation n especially because my emotions get SUPER intense really quickly and now one of my close friends decides to switch things up on me so fast I'm feeling so upset and embarrassed too, because I asked him to do something because I wanted to find something out if he didnt mind. And it was going fine and then he just blanked out on me and left and I'm feeling so stressed and I want to scream and cry.

But I keep reminding myself I'm stronger than that !! And I know this prolly sounds super irrational but I'm not in a good state of mind right now.

But ugh I just feel so horrible, being mentally ill sucks so badly. 

Atleast I have my boyfriend I love him so much :( and he helps so much when I'm feeling stressed. I'm happy he's there for me and I can be there for him.