1.24.25 - Back w/ ex??? Not clickbait??

1.24.25

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★ AWKWARD...: yeah this is lore I need to explain...

Me and ♡S, although she is my best friend, dated briefly in freshman year. We mutually broke up but she never got over me. ಥ‿ಥ We still flirted a bit here and there but it was more one-sided on her end. To be fair ♡S, falls for any woman who dare lay eyes on her. It was a problem in the relationship. She wanted me (why) but also couldn't be held down to one person. She just doesn't work like that. ¯\_ʘ‿ʘ_/¯

Yeah, also she moved to Egypt, as mentioned in earlier blogs. And so she asked me, very early hours on my end (6:30am), if she can tell someone/people we are dating (sort of like so she can say "oh yeah my girlfriend lives in America" type shit I DONT KNOW HOW HER BRAIN WORKS). (*﹏*;) I'm used to that, I've told that to some people just so they buzz off. I said yes. I don't think I understood what ♡S meant.

We are apparently together again. What. Now, it doesn't bother me so bad, because again she's thousands of miles away but, like, yeah. (O.o)

I don't want to do this again but? It's not that bad. She's far away. I can't control her actions. I can't tie her down. I think she will get over this soon. We are juniors now, and we dated for 5 MONTHS MAX in freshman year. .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

But like... even after we broke up, I guess we've been flirty (AGAIN MOSTLY BY HER VERY LITTLE BY ME). I mentioned us telling that random kid we were dating. ♡S tells everyone she meets that she wants me like no ones business, which I didn't know. I don't know man... this rant has no structure. 

Summary I have commitment issues I don't know... 

I need to sleep I have work in the morning #grindset

- KB☆

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