☆ Relationship Ramble

I know it's normal to pine for romance at my age, at any age really, but I wonder why I've started to become SO fixated on romance only recently? I often find myself (embarrassingly) looking through the Romance and Relationships forum on here, seeing if anybody had posted another "Looking for Gf/Partner", while knowing it'd be such a toxic pairing if I actually reached out :/... I also look through other sites like Reddit and Twitter (god..) on other's relationships as I imagine myself in their shoes, feeding the little worms in my head scenarios. 

Perhaps I'm just your average loser lesbian; though I wouldn't label myself as a "hopeless romantic" fanatic. That will be my nightly ramble into the screen thank you very mucchhhhhh. I'm not looking for any explicit advice, unless it's abt flirting with girls (LOL). Just wanted to rant about my emotions lately and pretend I'm smart by using big boy words :)