a sense of peace

i think i'm finally starting to feel a little more at peace with the friend circles i have. despite my anxiousness and fear of conflict i've started making a conscious effort to establish boundaries, listen to my gut when it tells me to distance myself from someone AND most importantly (imo), if i get a bad feeling from a situation or someone, i nip it in the bud. i feel really bad at first but people can be so MEAN! i've learned that they don't deserve my time or energy and trying to be a people pleaser is a recipe for disaster. >_< 

i'm still mourning some of the circles i've left and peeps i've distanced myself from but gosh they stressed me out so much sometimes, which i think isn't ideal? ;_; i feel MUCH better hanging out with the ones i've decided to keep though. they are a source of comfort, laughter and distraction from my day to day worries. shoutout to my friends!!!   

idk if anyone reads this ahsdjf i just needed to write it somewhere, i think it helps me understand what i feel. :3