Rant

Life feels very weird i feel like im very much behind on everything there is. Im scared of throwing my life away because i already lost my teenage years and now im growing and there’s no way to pause or take a breath. It’s a bit hard trying to meet everyone’s expectations on what you should do, study, eat, behave etc. but isn’t this my life? I know sometimes you have to listen to other people about certain things when it comes to life but where does the line stop because i cant tell and end up doing whatever i get told to and I watch other people and cant help but be jealous.