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6 years is the longest I've ever been in a relationship. I really thought she was the one. I was going to propose to her on her birthday. Then she decided to break things off with me 2 months ago. I'm usually never the type of person to beg and cry. But when she said she think we were better off as friends.. it was like a nuke was dropped on me. I really, really wanted to fix what was broken but she wanted no part of it.
I foolishly accepted being her friend cause I didn't want to lose her. It ended up being the biggest mistake. Everyday it was emotionally torturing. We no longer gave good morning & good night kisses, no more cuddling and watching shows/movies, no more cooking together, no more going out on adventures.
I've told her.. maybe 3 times that I can't do this friends thing anymore. She's in denial and won't let me go. I can't be around someone who won't commit and won't let go. I would have LOVED to see where things went if she was also willing to work it out but she's moved on.
So, I made the decision of moving out. I thought about it for weeks and it just hurt no matter what. I have come to realized that if she really wanted to try again, she would. I quit trying to get her.. I finally stopped making a fool of myself. Maybe down the line, yeah we can be friends but not this time. The hurt is still there and I still want her romantically. I have to give her the breakup. She can't just leave me and have me at the same time. I can't exist in 2 different zones.
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flxckos
you're absolutely right.