well well well

i made an online friend

hes really cool

he makes a post that hes looking for another partner (hes polyamorous)

i comment volunteering

we start to talk 

we begin to talk a lot

i start to fall

he asks to date

we start dating

we talk a lot and he spams me with tiktoks but i dont mind i love them all

i start spamming him too

we keep talking

we hope we can meet up 

we talk about getting long distance Bluetooth bracelets 

we slowly start talking less and less

i begin to have to say something first

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we barley talk and i still spam him, i have to say something first, i like him a lot but

i don't think he likes me anymore

but i don't want to breakup with him cus what if im wrong??

ill just wait

and hope we go back to what we where before

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our 1 month will be on the 3rd of feb

i hope we'll at least last until valentines

i cant have another breakup before valentines

after is preferred 

if its on Valentine i might actually sob my fucking eyes out and will not want to do anything for the rest of the week cus who dumps someone on VALENTINES??

but idk what to do so pls give me ideas :p (DONT say breakup, i still like him a lot)

i honestly just hope i can meet someone i really love and truly loves me back at my new school

even waiting till highschool is fine i honestly just want someone to really love me

not for my body

not for anything other than me

i want someone to love me for me

and not want that 

and understands why I don't want it

i feel like a big loser while writing this, i should be reading but im just sitting writing a post about my love life while listening to "all i want" by Olivia Rodrigo 

its a good song don't bully me :[