was any of it real?

Six fucking years. five of which we lived together (2018 - 2023 is 5 years). I haven't said shit to you in the last year. I found a personal belonging of yours that I remembered was important to you while I was packing up the place we lived together in and decided to e-mail you to ask for an address to send it to.. 

(Edit to add: in December of 2024, and then sent the final e-mail in January because I remembered how important you said it was to you and had the knowledge that you never checked your e-mails during the many years we were together. That is all I wanted to do was get it back to you. I do not have your address anymore because I did not keep it. It was not my information to keep. The only address that I found was one that was in my outgoing shipping program but I did not know if it was current or not. But thanks to someone who you're friends with for telling me about the cute little blog post you made I am guessing in response to this post? 

I just wanted to get you your stuff back. Thats all I was trying to do. I wasn't trying to be hostile with you. This energy was unnecessary. Good luck to you. 

But please. Stop spying on my shit if you know I do not want contact with you.)

And you sick your lawyer girlfriend on me by having her reply instead? You can't even give me the fucking respect of either replying or just ignoring me or at least saying you don't want it? Fine, in the trash it goes. I don't have your address anyways I didn't keep your info. I just had your e-mail memorized thats it.

You went on and on about how afraid you were that our ex from our triad was trying to "cowgirl/cowboy" me from you. Yeah they were certainly abusive to the both of us, but it was projection after all wasn't it? Ellie cowgirled you from me. You ended it by abandoning me and lying to me all of December and January of 2023 (I know all about that btw) and executing reactive abuse by perpetually violating my boundaries and directly lying to me. You just made me be the one to formally end it because you couldn't give me the respect of talking to me face to face. It tore me apart to end things with you, but you had already emotionally left months beforehand.

It took several of my friends to wake me up and realize what a dumb ass I was being thinking you were just enjoying your new partner. But in a way, I guess that was the case after all - except not the way I thought.... she had money to blow on you where I no longer did and that is why you left me. Or was it because I was still figuring out my sexuality? I guess it doesn't matter now.

None of it was real was it? you were just with me so you didn't have to be with your family and then left when I became more disabled and didn't have money to blow didn't you. You were not scared I was going to die back in 2017. You were just scared you'd have nowhere to go. That's clear to me now. Good fucking riddance.