im feeling scared, and hopless.

i have a band test tommorrow and i brought my french horn home but im not to confident, also one of my friends said that there brother was stealing me (as a friend) and i just dont think its true, im gonna call him P. (the one who said there brother was stealing me) and P and i never had much in common. so now R (his brother) is kinda sad, he has anger issues and is trying to work on not being as mean. so in doing that he doesnt want to hang out as much anymore, which is sad because hes geniunley a really good friend. our friend group consist of a couple people, and P has always been friend of everyone, or been the most popular. i dont know why he has to care abut me, he said i saved his life because i helpped in through depression but thats the only thing we talk about. and i fyou know me youll know im a very happy person, and i dont really want to be sad as much anymore as i think its affecting my mental health and state as i dont have much to do anymore. i still want to be friends with P because hes a very nice person, but its hard because sometimes hes just petty. also i got more weird al concerts! im going to one with vip and then another one in the lawn, the goodnews is the one with VIP is in a diffrent sate. my dad said it would be nice to visit a diffrent state. and the lawn tickets were only 40$!! its near where i live so its sorta just for fun, but it is during school so they said i can skip that week!! i feel like my friends are starting to ignore me more. ill add a couple more people to the our FG(friend group) so you guys can know more, Dy, K and Dm. Dy is taling a break from discord for his mental health which is good! but Dm and K are both in a gc i think there starting to like more so there not joining calls as much. P also started a terreria world which is nice but i dont play it to much and neither does R. ill update you guys to see if were still in contact, abouit the band test to.